Cancer can't stop good

Because, deep down I think we know, all the bad things that can happen in life can't stop us from making our lives good.

I hope you will check out this commercial from Allstate.  I love the wisdom because I beleive - even though bad things happen good things can come from them.

A couple of weeks ago I decided to treat myself to a Spiced Apple Cider (Yummy!) at Starbucks inside Target with a gift card I had received.  In spite of wanting to get home I  waited in the slow moving line for my craving self.  As I waited a little white knight came into my day.


(a white knight is the term I use to describe the miracles of cancer, it comes from my favorite Onc nurse (Lisa at Utah Cancer Specialists - Layton) helping me learn to visualize my healing as she pumped evil chemo into my veins and told me to imagine armies of white knights marching through my body slaying cancer cells)

Behind me a man asked to be forgiven for getting personal, "I noticed you are wearing a turban and I assume it may because you are getting chemo."  (Oh, I am getting sick of looking like cancer.  I wore a long red wig and false eyelashes on Black Friday when I took the kiddies to the mall and no one looked twice or had the look of compassion in their eyes.  As far as anyone knew I was insane for going to the mall - wait, they are insane for going to the mall.  It was nice for ALL of us to just be normal.  But, if I was normal I wouldn't be able to bless the lives of people like this white knight.)  He really didn't need to know what I would suggest to get through chemo.  He needed to tell someone who understands - I am starting chemo in 2 days.  I am scared.  I am supposed to get on a plane two days after that.  I don't want my life to stop.  I don't want to hold myself over a bucket for days.

WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN?  PLEASE - TELL ME THE DOCTORS AREN'T LYING.  TELL ME IT WILL BE OK!

And, luckily I can tell him IT IS GOING TO BE OK!  You can get through chemo.

I am so blessed to be able to help others get through cancer, in some little way. I know how much someones help means and I am grateful to make the road easier for someone else.

I have just learned that a person who has become very central to my life has a relapse of cancer.  It is a rare cancer, if I am correct it is called Pseudomyxoma Peritonei.  It is a terrible rare cancer with minimal research and less understanding for treatment options and a cure.  For everyone who has prayed for me, please pray for my friend, I am leaving the name out for privacy sake.

Dear friend - know that Cancer can't stop us from making our lives good!  God will brings blessings he could not have offered without the (rotten) circumstances cancer brings.

Make life good!
Love - Kel

I can't find the words...

Today I wanted to post a tribute- I have been thinking about so many people who I know and love who have been effected by cancer, and I wanted to say something about it all.  I can't seem to find the right words or tone to express what I feel, so I am taking that as a sign.  I am going to skip that post and focus on what I really need to think about tonight- tomorrow.

Tomorrow is the big day, it is the treatment that is going to arrest the highest number of cancer cells.  The long needles and fat syringes are going to be full of White Knight Warriors, all with marching orders from which they will not deviate.  Tomorrows treatment may be powerful and strong, but I will be stronger.  I will enjoy the play and the weekend.  I will breeze through 3 days of work next week and enjoy THE BEST HOLIDAY- THANKSGIVING!

Tomorrow is treatment!  I gotta get my head in it, get my game face on, and get ready to kick cancer!
I am going to create an affirmation routine and I am going to really focus on positive imagery instead of the temporarily crippling pain of the shots.  I am going to load some pictures of my greatest supporters on my iPhone and I am taking you with me to treatment.  We are in this together.  Would you like your picture loaded into my group of greatest supporters? Post it!

Positive mojo of the day...

There is something good about cancer- the snail mail.  It is so much fun to go to the mailbox and find something besides junk mail, advertisements, marketing letters and postcards and other junk.  I love the cards and packages we have received.  It is cheerful for the whole family.  So, thank you.
I am really looking forward to getting your Christmas cards.  I like the ones with family pictures best (hint, hint)

And, I am looking forward to seeing MP when he is home too.