The naked truth

Here's the truth. It's raw and revealing. It also says a lot about how far I have come in managing the heartache and disappointment of my divorce and X's choices. 

When I see cute videos of women with cancer telling their story with their husband by their side I feel sad. I wish I had a husband who stood by me through this. One who took some of the responsibility for everything life requires to help me bear this burden.  One who loved me no matter what happened through chemo and surgery.  

I look at the husbands in these videos and I think, don't screw this up.  Be a man. Dig deep and become the man God expects you to become. Don't give up. 

The good news, I believe that there are men out there who are good enough and selfless enough to be that kind of man, the kind of man I wish I had and I hope to have someday.