Red as a lobster!

Yesterday we hung at the pool for a few hours. I got a tinge of pink on my legs, and lobster red on my chest and shoulders. Ah, but the water and friends, carefree children playing- its one of my top 10 things.

Anyway, update....
Happy Fathers day to the wonderful men in my life who have been strong role models for my kiddies. Your generosity and integrity are the answer to my prayer that these kids will know what a real father should be.
We are so lucky to be close to my parents. My little ones spend a lot of time with them, and they are very loved there. Dad is the best and does a fantastic job of teaching them what a father is. Mom also gives 100% to bring them a solid understanding of family.
But, because I am mom and dad for my kids, Happy Fathers Day to me!

Cancerology...
Yup, I still got it, stage IV breast cancer. It has been a couple wild months getting back into active treatment. I had almost 2 months without treatment while I switched. It took over 6 weeks to get the new meds in- a Rx combo I take (2 pills) at home every day.
I started the pills while on vacation in NY and ended up with a nasty reaction. I had to stop taking it for a while until the rash cleared up. But, last week I started back up. So far so good.
I saw the Onc this week. She doubled the dose of one pill, so I have to get a new Rx written because she only wrote it for 28 pills a month.
My blood tests are in the toilet, of course, after so many weeks without treatment, but they will start to turn around now.
It was great for my system to have some time off- I got over some of the residual exhaustion from the build up of meds in my body and feel pretty good. But, I have to accept the wearing down of my stamina again so I can keep living. What a choice_ feel better and die of cancer or feel kinda rotten and live. Not the kind of choice you should have to make. But, for now, I don't feel too rotten from the drugs and the miracle of being a mom is a quest worth the challenges.
I don't want anyone else raising my kids. I want to teach them the lessons of honesty, hard work, taking responsibility, and endurance. I also want to feel the thrill every time they kick the ball in a soccer game. The joy and pride when they succeed in something. I believe I am the one person who knows them well enough to give them what they need. I am imperfect and may not win mother of the year, but it isn't because I don't give it everything I have.
So, I gotta keep going. I have to find a way to do more than I can because that is what they need. By the way, the answer to doing more than possible is 1) God, 2) Family, 3) Friends.
I am blessed with all three on my side.
Love ya,
Kel