I need a new attack plan:
Unfortunatly it looks like I have built up a resistance to the treatment regimine, so I will have to change my treatment plan and push for the next solution.I knew this was coming. I had a sense that it was going to happen. So, now we are looking at a treatment that has only been used in the last 5 month on breast cancer mets patients like me.
Although new, it is not intended as a cure. I will still be getting treatment that prolongs life and minimizes side effects.
I am thinking a lot about how I handle this, what am I doing that allows the highest probability of success, and what is the success I expect?
My thoughts just go back to what I felt before.This is how I felt at the beginning of this journey. And, I just want my life back! Cancer, cancer, go away, never come back!
This is stressful and distracting. It is heart-breaking.
Here is why I am not going to loose it:
1. I am still better off than when they first found the metastatic tumors, so I am ahead of the curve.
2. There is a new treatment option, and it should allow me to keep my life like I have it now.
3. I have still got chemo to fall back on.
4. I have hope that the faith I felt before is still worth trusting.
5. I feel myself drawn more to the things that matter.
3 comments:
Oh Bummer Kel! It must be hard to keep waiting on the next test results! It seems like these results vary so much. I admire the way you live your life while waiting. Can't it just be judged by how you feel? The fact that you have a full time job and are raising 3 kids & managing it all miraculously speaks volumes!! I think you have earned a 0 on that stupid marker!! (haha trying to be funny!)
Let me know if you need anything.
I'm glad we all survived these tornadoes and I hope your girls were not traumatized by the "duck and cover" position at school for so long!
Lori
I believe in you. You are strong, and you will win.
Yes, there were tornadoes all around us yesterday. Kids had to "duck and cover" for hours. They were a bit upset, a few tears and teasing by classmates, but we are good. None of them seemed to hit close to our area, but many people in the metroplex aren't so lucky.
@ Lori K: I like it! Let's vote. I vote a perfect score too!
@ Claudia: Thanks for you hope and belief in me.
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