Oh the Pain!

I am almost 2 weeks out from my last treatment, but today I am experiencing a lot of discomfort.  I could be the added responisbilities at work as we are short 2 people in our department since Christmas.  It could also be the added stress from trouble with the kiddies Dad.  But, in the end- it is the cancer that makes it all so much tougher.
Last week I went in to a lymphadema specialist and felt really uncomfortable in my skin talking about having stage IV cancer.  It may seem shocking for those who are reading this, but I have a tough time accepting my cancer in such a personal way.  I live with cancer, I get treatment for cancer, I fight cancer, I can even blog about it and keep an emotional distance- but to be a stage IV cancer patient is scary.
Stage IV is the perceived train stop before End-Stage.  While I am confident that I will beat this and will not be End-Stage, maintaining my faith in that requires maintaining a distance from the diagnosis. 
Days like today make me feel fragile.  They remind me of the precarious state of my health.

So what?  What am I going to do about it?  Self pitty is neither going to change my situation or the joint and bone pain.

SO- I wore my sneakers today.  They are more comfortable and supportive than work shoes.  I am just staying at my desk as much as I can.  I am going to look into some alternative medicines for swelling and pain- I will take some ibuprophin tonight, but don't want to be using that all of the time because it is hard on the stomach.  I am also going to sit in the hot tub until my hands and feet look like raisins, have the kids read to me, listen to music, and make it a really peaceful night.
Does anyone out there know of others who have this kind of pain from Xgeva? I would like to know how they are treating the pain.