Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Dear Disney World, I should have come last year



I really wanted to go to Disney World in June to celebrate my 5 years since diagnosis.  I had the money, bought the travel guides, and was researching all the options to make it the best trip possible.  But, every time I looked at the cost for the whole package I found excuses to not make the purchase.
In the back of my mind I kept thinking, go now! Celebrate now, don't wait because you don't know what tomorrow will bring, you may not be able to celebrate bring cancer-free.  I argued in my mind but never clicked "buy now".
In the end, I am glad that I didn't buy the trip I have been dreaming on for 5 years.  I needed the money to cover some expenses when the kids dad didn't send the money, and when my car broke down, and the list goes on.  But, I missed my chance to celebrate being cancer-free.
Was this just the regular fear of a cancer survivor? Or premonition? I suppose others would say it was a self-fulfilling prophecy.  I believe it was wisdom.  And, a choice.  In the end I made the choice to use the money for something besides Disney World.  (But seriously, to spend thousands and thousands of dollars on a trip when I was driving a 17 year old car?)
I can't help but feel a little sorry for what I missed though.
But, Mickey is still there.  I have started stashing away my dollars again, and I will get together the money for a trip to Disney World.  It will even be better now.  The girls will be older, and I will celebrate even more having overcome cancer again.
I still have a picture in my mind of all of us posing with each of the disney characters for a picture.  I see us all laughing and later looking through the pictures together.
Dear Disney World, I should have come last year if I really wanted to celebrate 5 years since my original diagnosis because my oncologist found mets before I made it 5 years since my original treatment ended. However; keep your gates open because I am going to be there as soon as I can make it.  We still have a date.
Love,
Kel - A Mouseketeer at Heart

2 comments:

Anne said...

My daughter loves Mickey so much and I could already imagine my daughter when meeting up with Mickey in the Disney Land! You've made me so excited. Disney Activities

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